Hello November

October was not a fun month for a variety of health reasons, but there are finally no more medical tests on the horizon (for now) so things are starting to look up. I do have more doctor appointments and then surgery to look forward to, but that’s a problem for future me. Today there is nothing but blue skies, nice weather, and perhaps pizza.

Most of my goals for October got derailed so I’ve been trying to get back on track, though right now my main goal is focusing on feeling better. Hard to do anything else otherwise. And I do feel much better than I did at the start of October so there’s been definite progress.

But enough about all that.

I’ve been reading the book Letting Go by David Hawkins, M.D. and here’s a quote:

"People are desperate to stay unconscious. We observe how often people flick on the television set the minute they enter a room and then walk around in a dream-like state, constantly being programmed by the data poured into them. People are terrified of facing themselves. They dread even a moment of aloneness."

This is something that keeps coming back in the different things I read or come across, so it feels important. To that end, I’ve been trying to cultivate boredom. I’ve not been very successful, mind you, but I’ve been trying. Close all the apps. Sit quietly doing nothing. Stare out the window.

I’m definitely guilty of getting sucked into the endless scroll. And I find that my ability to concentrate on anything has gone down the drain.

So yes, more boredom. More sitting with myself. Less scrolling.